Holy shit, I just finished the best workout of my fucking LIFE! I found Zuzka's 30 Day Fitness Challenge schedule on her website, and I decided to start doing it. I began with Day 1, ZShred #16. Wow, it totally kicked my ass, but I kept up! I did her warm-up #2 to start and ended it with her cool-down #2. So perfect. I am wiped out! I'm so pleased I was able to keep up with her for the most part (I paused the video once for about 15 seconds, but I kept going as soon as I could!). I've always been intimidated by her non-beginner workouts, because the beginner ones wipe me out sometimes. But I've decided to push it, because I love the challenge and I know I can do it. I want to be athletic, and this is what it takes to get there.
Today, so much was good. I worked, had a good time. I'm getting along better and better with my co-workers. I took a good picture on instagram. I had a good breakfast of eggs and potatoes. I got to eat a mistake (baguette with ham, lettuce, cucumbers, fromage... tasted like Paris!). I am getting better and better at navigating the co-worker interactions with my sealegs. I made some money and got my paycheck. The pace was easy-going. I saw some of my favorite regulars. I served with authenticity and sincerity. I had a good salad for lunch. I drank lots of water. I got an email back from L'Ecole Jacques Lecoq! In French! And I understood about 90% of it at first, and upon further reading, understood about 99%! I'm so excited about this! My "French brain" is coming on and waking up! I thought I'd forgotten a lot of my French, but all it takes is a little bit of focus on that aspect of my memory to wake it up full-force! I am certain that when I go there I'll be fluent within a month.
I had a nice walking meditation on the way home, using the contrast to focus myself inward. Sat for a moment within myself and then took a nap. Woke up and just felt through some feelings. Got up and found out that a co-worker needs her shift covered on Monday (an answer for my request for more money!). I took the time to sit down and budget out my dollars that I just received today. I talked aloud to The Divine and felt a connection re-forming/strengthening/loudening. I re-read the French email and realized the woman complimented me, saying it seems as though I already have a good level of comprehension in French! This made me SO HAPPY! I just couldn't even do anything, I just beamed! For like half an hour! Just sitting in this glorious happy space! Then I came to the gym and ROCKED my own world!!
This is a great life, and it's getting better and better! I'm looking forward to working tomorrow. Oh yeah, and I have a date for this Saturday morning! Brunch! Pancakes, bacon, and eggs, oh my!
This is SO GREAT! Maybe next entry I'll try and do it all in French! I love speaking French!
What's best about this whole France thing is that I have something delightfully tangible to focus on and dream about! I have a direction in which my energy is flowing just because my desire is magnetizing me forward! It feels so good to have that flow back. I now know what every effort I make is going towards. All of this working out, all of the working, all of the practicing, it's all a bunch of little steps toward something I love and am excited for. And what's best is I already have the feeling! The feeling of excitement is what I wanted back! I don't need anything else to manifest, I just wanted to have my zest back. And I got it. It always comes back, it's who I naturally am. So really, it's not coming back to me, I'm coming back to it. I'm finding my way back to it every day, and I'm getting better and better at just staying in it. But I am allowed to stray away from it if I like! I totally have the free will to do that! I can go wherever I like, get grumpy or happy. I can push or let go. I can allow or force. One works better than the other, one feels better than the other. I intend to choose being in the Flow as much as I can. Simply having that intention is all that matters.
Love,
Adrienne
PS: Just got home and made myself the perfect dinner! Chicken thigh meat sauteed in butter, with kidney beans and pesto; rosemary-garlic roasted red-skinned potatoes, and a little side salad of spring mix and raw red bell peppers. So delicious all together! I'm thankful for all the ingredients, and all the orchestration that brought them to my plate! Scrum-diddly-uptious!
Today, so much was good. I worked, had a good time. I'm getting along better and better with my co-workers. I took a good picture on instagram. I had a good breakfast of eggs and potatoes. I got to eat a mistake (baguette with ham, lettuce, cucumbers, fromage... tasted like Paris!). I am getting better and better at navigating the co-worker interactions with my sealegs. I made some money and got my paycheck. The pace was easy-going. I saw some of my favorite regulars. I served with authenticity and sincerity. I had a good salad for lunch. I drank lots of water. I got an email back from L'Ecole Jacques Lecoq! In French! And I understood about 90% of it at first, and upon further reading, understood about 99%! I'm so excited about this! My "French brain" is coming on and waking up! I thought I'd forgotten a lot of my French, but all it takes is a little bit of focus on that aspect of my memory to wake it up full-force! I am certain that when I go there I'll be fluent within a month.
I had a nice walking meditation on the way home, using the contrast to focus myself inward. Sat for a moment within myself and then took a nap. Woke up and just felt through some feelings. Got up and found out that a co-worker needs her shift covered on Monday (an answer for my request for more money!). I took the time to sit down and budget out my dollars that I just received today. I talked aloud to The Divine and felt a connection re-forming/strengthening/loudening. I re-read the French email and realized the woman complimented me, saying it seems as though I already have a good level of comprehension in French! This made me SO HAPPY! I just couldn't even do anything, I just beamed! For like half an hour! Just sitting in this glorious happy space! Then I came to the gym and ROCKED my own world!!
This is a great life, and it's getting better and better! I'm looking forward to working tomorrow. Oh yeah, and I have a date for this Saturday morning! Brunch! Pancakes, bacon, and eggs, oh my!
This is SO GREAT! Maybe next entry I'll try and do it all in French! I love speaking French!
What's best about this whole France thing is that I have something delightfully tangible to focus on and dream about! I have a direction in which my energy is flowing just because my desire is magnetizing me forward! It feels so good to have that flow back. I now know what every effort I make is going towards. All of this working out, all of the working, all of the practicing, it's all a bunch of little steps toward something I love and am excited for. And what's best is I already have the feeling! The feeling of excitement is what I wanted back! I don't need anything else to manifest, I just wanted to have my zest back. And I got it. It always comes back, it's who I naturally am. So really, it's not coming back to me, I'm coming back to it. I'm finding my way back to it every day, and I'm getting better and better at just staying in it. But I am allowed to stray away from it if I like! I totally have the free will to do that! I can go wherever I like, get grumpy or happy. I can push or let go. I can allow or force. One works better than the other, one feels better than the other. I intend to choose being in the Flow as much as I can. Simply having that intention is all that matters.
Love,
Adrienne
PS: Just got home and made myself the perfect dinner! Chicken thigh meat sauteed in butter, with kidney beans and pesto; rosemary-garlic roasted red-skinned potatoes, and a little side salad of spring mix and raw red bell peppers. So delicious all together! I'm thankful for all the ingredients, and all the orchestration that brought them to my plate! Scrum-diddly-uptious!
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