Day 22

Today was my rest day.  I just got back from the gym where I meditated and talked myself through some stuff.  It was good.

Things that were great today:  sleeping WAY in (holy shit, 12 hours of sleep?!), getting my underwear and towels washed (huh, why didn't I ever think of doing just that sometimes instead of waiting to do all of the laundry at once?), eating a heaping bowl of broccoli an onions and potatoes with two fried eggs and sprouts and Frank's Red Hot, booking it to the bus stop and making my way up the hill for my modeling gig at the University, modeling and doing my best to relax while I did it, finishing up and being asked to model twice more next week, booking it across campus to grab some snacks before visiting class, feeling instantly uplifted once I arrived at the studio, getting to play with my friends onstage, watching all of my fellow actors grow and become amazing artists, being made fun of by my teacher/friend for having so many snacks (lol, it was pretty silly, I had everything spread out), finding out one of my teachers will be gone for 3 weeks and that I might get to be the TA for a day (yay!!), getting a ride home from a good friend, having my neighbor unlock my door for me because I left my keys at home by accident (thank god she was home!  It was bitter cold out!), eating carrots and peanutbutter, watching Ollie chew on a big broccoli stump I gave him, heading to the gym and meditating for a bit, pep-talking myself, realizing I don't have to be perfect at all of this, weighing in and discovering I'm at 150 lbs (yay!), enjoying the walk back while listening to music, eating more carrots and peanutbutter, discovering that my recycling has been taken care of without any effort on my part, sitting here with my friend Ollie and realizing that today was actually a pretty good day.

I'm ready to take a step back and stop trying to control my life and the outcomes.  I am ready to take the steps that I can control (going to the gym, eating well, drinking enough water, going to bed on time, talking gently and encouragingly to myself, saying yes to opportunities that are fully in alignment with Who I Am and what I love, enjoying the little things).  I am ready to let go to my Large Self, knowing that I won't always be fully up to speed with it all, but that my intention is what counts.  

I'm ready to get out of the way.

Love, 

Adrienne