Day 16

Today's workout was from Day 8 of Zuzka's 30 day fitness plan.  It was a really good workout.  Not particularly tough in terms of cardio, but I was definitely sweating at the end, and I can feel those ballerina squats in my thighs as I type this!  I'm glad I made it to the gym, I was feeling kinda sleepy, and on a day before this 30 Day Challenge, I would have skipped it for sleeping instead.  But fuck that!

Today was challenging, but I managed to find myself as a result of the contrast I experienced, so I'm really thankful for it.  

Things that were great:  first customers were a British family and I had fun explaining the difference between jam and jelly, the little boy saying "thank you" in his tiny British accent was the most adorable thing ever, finding a little bowl of hash that was going to be thrown out and eating it instead (it was even delicious cold), hearing a naughty joke from a co-worker that made me laugh really loudly, being recognized for the commercial I'm in locally, busy lunch rush, excellent sandwich for lunch (herbed aioli, cranberry chutney, bacon, turkey, red onions, gruyere, spinach, grilled on sour dough), walking home in the rain, encountering the contrast head-on and talking to the Divine and hearing wonderfully gentle responses, enjoying a nap for a few hours, waking up and balancing my checkbook, eating cottage cheese and peaches, sorting out my finances and tax forms, getting overwhelmed and frustrated and just dropping it all to call my mom and sister to tell them another joke I heard at lunch today, listening to a good recording of Abraham and feeling myself relax back into the Flow, making dinner (asparagus, onions, spinach, kidney beans, potatoes, sautéed in butter and tossed in pesto.... YUM!), eating dinner and asking myself effective questions ("how can I approach all of this from a more open standpoint?" "how can I see things differently than I might think they should be?"  "how can I relax about all of this and trust in the unfolding of it?"  "how can I enjoy myself where I am now?"), watching Zuzka and preparing myself for the gym, going to the gym and bringin' it!  Walking home and daydreaming about the summertime and all the sundresses I'm gonna wear, taking Ollie out for a late night walk, relaxing and enjoying the simplicity of walking my dog, daydreaming of new 30 Day Challenges I'll be doing in the future, remembering a new opportunity I received for a childcare position in exchange for a free membership at a really nice gym (with sauna, steam room, pool, hot tub, and lots of classes!), coming home and eating yogurt with honey and granola, reading the perfect passages from the DO book, sitting and enjoying my communion with the Divine, feeling love for my God and my friends and family, enjoying where I am right now.  

Everything truly is working out for me, I can feel it.  I am getting better and better at feeling my vibration and allowing it to raise.  I'm also becoming more and more intolerant to my own downward spirals!  They don't last long because I can't fucking stand how it makes me feel to be sloppy in my thinking!  I'm also becoming more and more reliable to myself and proving it to myself every time I make it to the gym and end my day with this list of appreciation.  I'm thankful for all of this.

Love,

Adrienne