Day 6

I'm on a roll motherfucker!

Today was badass!  I had a great day at work, felt very playful and frisky, and logged every single motherfucking calorie!  Probably burned more than I counted (waitressing!), but that's a good thing right?

Things today that were great:  Waking up earlier than I needed to and feeling into my body as I woke up, drinking water and taking my yummy gummy vitamins, making a baller-ass smoothie (the usual... so mouthgasmic!), RAVING (whoops, caps lock!  I'm keepin it!) for 5 minutes, feeling excited about my day, walking to work, gifting one of my raw energy bars to my co-worker, slicing meat and listening to my Spirit Uplift playlist, getting called up early due to a random breakfast rush (yeah! tips!), having fun with some naughty customers, feeling frisky, drinking fresh squeezed orange juice, encountering contrast and (after resisting for a little while) letting go to it, eating my raw energy bar and immediately feeling more focused, finding out that the play I auditioned for last week wants to see me for callbacks on Monday (FUCK YEAH!!), literally jumping for joy and doing a happy dance, seeing my "sugar daddy" (I keed, I keed!) for the first time in a few months (he was in Florida!), him buying me a flourless chocolate cookie (delicious... totally blew my calorie intake, but I was walking all day...), eating an amazing and simple salad for lunch (mixed greens, spinach, tomatoes, cucumbers, chevre, red onions, carrots, grapes, and pepitas.... dressed in roasted garlic and thyme vinaigrette.  MMMMM!), finding out that my neighbor is happy to adopt my doggie (this is so good for both of us.  My schedule is getting busier and more awesome all the time, and I needed to free myself up even more), feeling bittersweet sadness for the rest of the shift, receiving sweet comforting encouragement from my boss and coworkers when I started to cry after announcing the news, listening to the rest of my Spirit Uplift playlist as we cleaned up, allowing tears to flow as I swept, making $110 in tips and getting my paycheck, walking home and just feeling, encountering my doggie and giving him a big hug, walking to the bank to deposit my cash wearing just a hoodie (wow, spring is unfurling!), paying for my Divine Sessions with Donna, having a quick chat with my mom while my neighbor took Ollie for an adventure, having the most uplifting and soothing session with Donna and feeling so good about myself and where I am in my life (and best of all, where I'm headed!), softening and feeling, taking a hot shower, sinking back into my bed and feeling and softening some more until I dozed off, waking up to my mom coming to my place to pick up Ollie for the weekend, having soup and tea with her and talking about things, cuddling with Ollie and hugging and kissing his sweet little face, feeling so good about the yummy dinner I'd just had, receiving the audio recording of today's session, listening to it while I walked for a while in the nighttime spring air (so unbelievably warm... relatively!), walking down to the river and sitting in a dry part of the bed and listening to my own sweet voice and Donna's soothing and motherly voice, feeling so uplifted and encouraged on my way back, eating a little bit of yogurt with granola and honey, raving for 15 minutes in the mirror and just relishing the light in my eyes and the sweetness in my cheeks, sitting down to reflect on my day and realizing how much my life has expanded in the last few weeks.

It's really amazing what raving has done for me.  I'm so glad I've made this commitment to myself.  I'm looking forward to seeing it through to the end.  Almost one week down!

Love,
Adrienne

Day 5

Today was lovely.  I got to sleep way way in and lounge about for a long while.  I counted every single calorie eaten and expended.  I had two 15 minute rave sessions (yeah!) and they really raised my vibration tangibly.  I'm feeling more alive and in my body than ever before.  I'm relaxing more and opening up my cells to receive Grace.  It's so good.

Things today that were great:  Waking up in the early afternoon, making an AWESOME smoothie with berries and such (oh my god the FLAVOR.  So orgasmic), budgeting my calories effectively throughout the day (eating many smaller meals was really wonderfully sustaining, rather than breaking it into larger 500 or 600 calorie chunks), eating a delicious cup of leftover soup from the Cafe (some of that spicy Southwestern Sweet Potato and Zucchini greatness!  OH MY GOODNESS IT'S SO GOOD, AND I HAVE ALMOST A GALLON OF IT!), making my way to the Chiropractor and being late but encountering my lovely friend again in the waiting room, being complimented on my awesome glittery nails (I love them so much!), getting a great adjustment and hearing excellent feedback from the Dr. saying that I was much more stabilized and that my back is looking great, drinking lots of water, making my way to the co-op for a quick little lunch of chicken samosas with a sweet chutney as well as a drumstick that was excellent (perfect amount of sustenance!), hiking up the hill to visit my old acting class, enjoying the entertainment of watching Repetitions and all the wonderful character work and such, getting to do a fun exercise with a 2nd semester student, having fun laughing at naughty jokes in class, drinking spicy ginger tea with almond milk (mmmm, so soothing), getting a ride back downtown to the taqueria for some delicious tacos (mmmm, so perfectly filling and delicious!), walking to the gym to weigh myself (down 4.2 lbs!  Yeehaw!), power walking all the way home (feeling like a badass with my long, fast strides in my kickass boots), getting home and settling into the warmth, logging all of my calories and being exactly 3 calories under my budget (yeah!), listening to an audio session of Lola and a client talking about slowing down and getting into your body and listening to the Divine Nudges, feeling expansive and tingly in my body as I sat there, emailing one of the Divine Openings Certified Guides about setting up some sessions for the near future, relaxing as I washed the dishes, brushing and flossing my beautiful white teeth, doing a rave in the mirror and admiring my face and physique, feeling so appreciative for what I have, letting go and getting as out of the way as I can, feeling ready for bed in my cozy sweat pants and long-sleeved shirt.

Things are going so well for me!  I'm loving the trajectory I'm on, and I'm really looking forward to doing sessions with Donna!  It's gonna be so good for me.  I'm also looking forward to receiving my Dating Book in the mail (they'd forgotten to send it!  Oops!  So glad I asked, because now it's on its way!  Yay!).  Things are going great in my absence!

Love,
Adrienne

Day 4

Wow, what a fantastic day I've had!  Just finished binge-watching Dexter (finished Season 4, woooh!) and did a great job keeping my caloric intake below 300 for the unexpected 6 hours I was up (Lol, maybe I should have just had a meal... but I kinda liked nibbling on little things and letting them add up).

Things today that were awesome:  Waking up and having a couple hours of morning to do my thing, finishing the project I started last night at 3 am (making raw vegan brownies... didn't turn out as awesome as I'd hoped, but I've learned and now I'm gonna make some more... as soon as I eat these ones!  Haha!), washing my blender and making a magnificent smoothie (with frozen berries this time!  Yeah!  Makes it so yummy!), bundling up and heading downtown to meet with a friend and ride up to the College, playing for a few hours with all of my acting friends while giving a demonstration to the students, getting a ride back downtown with an actor friend and having tacos with her for lunch (oh my god so good!  I think I'll go back for more this afternoon!), getting home and walking Ollie for almost an hour (exploring parts of town I rarely visit anymore), logging my calories burned (I had gone over a bit with the tacos... it's because I snacked too much at 3 am!) and getting to eat a nibble of "brownie" before taking a nice long evening nap (drifting off to the sound of Lola's voice as she coached a woman to feel into her body), waking up and feeling hungry and staving it off with fresh spinach and kim chee (I only had like 30 calories left for the night!), watching Dexter for several hours while intermittently nibbling on nuts and such (I roasted a beet and put a couple tablespoons of Greek yogurt on it and some seasalt... oh my god, so fucking good), drinking lots of water, doing my rave and letting it transform into a prayer (more like a communion, rekindling my relationship with the Divine), getting sleepy again at 6:30 and preparing myself for another nap.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow!  It's today actually, but I like to consider the other side of sleep "tomorrow."  I'll be (I think) helping my friend test makeup for his film shoot (coming up this weekend, yes!), and then in the evening I'll be enjoying game night with my friends!  Yeah, nerds unite!  I'm super excited to play games!  And I'm even more excited about the food I'll get to eat!  I love this whole counting calories thing, it adds so much more appreciation to my food experience!  I just ate 12 pistachios and each one of them was so delicious and nuanced because I savored them so much.  I didn't realize there's a sweetness to pistachios that very pleasantly underlies the initial salty crunch of them.  Wow, so much goodness.  And that beet!  Whew!  What a perfect little treat I made myself, and under 100 calories!  Actually, most of the calories were from the yogurt!  The yogurt really made it perfect though.  Maybe next time I'll try it with some pesto :)

Yum!  Life is so good!  Food is so good!  This is so much fun!

Love,
Adrienne

Day 3

Today was good, filled with rest.

Things that were great:  Waking up and scrounging the energy to do a rave, making a smoothie with frozen bananas (wow, so much yummier this way!  It was so thick and sweet!), walking to work and being thankful for my amazing boots (waterproof AND excellent traction!  So great!), getting to work and un-bundling, putting desserts out, nibbling on pine nut nougatine (and logging it in my app of course!), a very slow-going day (perfect for my slow-going energy), putting dairy away in the walk-in and finding some moments of solitude there, eating an amazing and perfectly portioned lunch (having logged the calories, I enjoyed it all the more thoroughly) which included delicious and spicy flavorful soup, listening to my Spirit Uplift playlist (now including Snatam Kaur's "Anand" which I love) while cleaning up, getting a whole big thing of leftover soup and some potatoes as well, walking home and letting Ollie out and putting my soup in the fridge (how cool, I have a fridge!), walking to the Chiropractor and arriving right on time, getting the most intense adjustment of my life, walking out feeling floaty and high/serene, walking Ollie to the park by the river, a stranger with a beard approaching me and telling me to look through his binoculars at the wood duck in the river (wow, such beautiful markings!  And no, this is not a very elaborate sexual innuendo!), appreciating such a simple moment shared with a stranger, walking home, jerking off and taking a nice long nap, waking up from some seriously bizarre dreams, making myself an AMAZING dinner (pesto chicken burgers with asparagus and roasted potatoes from the cafe... all perfectly portioned and logged into my app!  SO DELICIOUS AND APPRECIATED!), browsing the interwebz, doing some research on weight loss and the healthiest weight for my body (my intuited goal of 135 is actually the scientifically ideal goal for my body type and height!  Such great relief to know that my ideal weight is actually a healthy weight for me),listening to some Divine Openings stuff, feeling a craving for chocolate and letting it spur a midnight shopping trip for the ingredients to make a raw brownie, budgeting the perfect amount for all the ingredients and foodstuffs I needed, walking home from the grocery store and realizing I was carrying in my hands the amount of weight I used to carry on my body, getting home from the grocery store and putting all my shit away, getting started on the brownie thing at 3am but realizing that my blender was WAY too loud for such an hour, taking nibbles instead on the parts of the mixture and mashing them together to create mini brownies (eee!), eating dates and raw cashews, drinking lots of water throughout the day, brushing and flossing my pearly whites, taking moments to be in my body and realizing that my back feels so much more amazing than it ever has, really feeling the vibration of my Spirit within me, enjoying the content of Module 4 of the Level 1 Online Course on divineopenings.com, doing my nighttime rave and feeling authentically appreciative of everything I have right now.

This is a good place to be.  I'm so thankful, and I'm super excited for what is to come!

Can't wait to discover how these brownies turn out!

Love,
Adrienne

Day 2

Rocked it today!  Did all the steps of my challenge!  Yeah!

Things today that were great:  Waking up and sleepy-time raving, making my Rockin' Wellness smoothie, bundling up and heading on out the door, walking briskly to work and appreciating the pink morning, easy-going start to my day, easy-going day to my day, seeing my favorite French ladies, making dirty jokes with my boss and co-workers, eating the most magnificent omelette OF ALL TIME, logging every bite of food taken, feeling completely satisfied and happy about the lunch I ate since I logged all the calories, listening to Noir Desir while cleaning up, getting a wonderful group pep-talk from my boss, discovering that there is a better system for the servers' assistants and that we'll be implementing it ASAP (sweet!  efficiency!  improvement!  YES!), encountering a friend in the co-op after work, enjoying a yummy and low-calorie Kevita Coconut drink (yummmm), walking home and letting Ollie out, lying down for a little bit and letting Ollie shower me with kisses and affection (what a good boyfriend ;), walking up the hill to the studio for an intention exercise, having a super fun read-through afterward with my friend (and favorite teacher) whose webseries I have been cast in (YES! this is going to be SO MUCH FUN!), getting a ride home, eating 2 eggs with a little bit of spinach and some kim chee, going over budget on my calorie intake and calculating how many minutes of dog-walking I would need to do to get back under budget (40 minutes was sufficient), walking in a part of town that I rarely visit anymore (I miss living there!  So peaceful and quiet with lovely european-style streets alongside a babbling creek), sitting for a moment on a bench and getting into my body and feeling my power, walking home and not losing my toes (ouch!  haha!), immediately taking a hot shower and raving for 15 minutes, peeing into a toilet, brushing my teeth, moisturizing my face and arms and hands, coming back to my bedroom to find my little doggie waiting for me on my bed, getting sleepy and feeling satisfied with my day, looking forward to what comes next for me tomorrow :)

Love,
Adrienne

Day 1

Today was delightful!  I got my two raves in and I counted every single calorie!  Yes!

Things today that were great:  Waking up late in the day, raving, feeling that I didn't (for some reason) want to audition for this Shakespeare production and deciding to cancel, getting a text shortly afterwards asking if I could read for a part I just received in a webseries my friend is putting together (at the same time as my audition would have been... cool!), drinking water, making a Rockin' Wellness smoothie (measuring everything and counting calories of course!), drinking it and sitting in my sun-filled living room, taking a hot shower and shaving my legs and pits and lady bits, moisturizing my body, getting dressed (skinny jeans and my fave shirt!), wearing just a coat (no sweater underneath!) and scarf to walk downtown, picking up a kombucha and Clif Bar and pistachios at the co-op, riding up the hill with my friend to the studio, reading/rehearsing with another actress the scene we'll be doing together in the webseries, having fun listening to my friend describe the world he's created (I absolutely LOVE his imagination), getting excited about the creepy makeup and costumes we'll get to wear, drinking Gingerade kombucha, talking music on the way back home with my friend, going into my wonderful home and being greeted by my sweet puppy dog, sitting down and eating my Clif Bar and pistachios, taking a long nap, waking up and drinking some water, washing dishes, making a delicious dinner (kale, broccoli, asparagus, sauteed in coconut oil and tossed in pesto; topped with 3 fried eggs with hot sauce), browsing the Divine Openings forum, lounging about, going for a nice walk with Ollie (logging calories burned!), asking some wonderful Effective Questions while I walked in the spring evening air, getting home and making myself a carefully measured snack (baby carrots, red bell pepper, and a portion of an Organic Food Bar!  Haha!  I refuse to go over my calorie budget!), drinking more water and feeling into my body, experiencing the Seat of my Power, daydreaming about my newly furnished living room while cuddling with my doggie, brushing and flossing my teeth, raving and feeling amazing about my life, knowing that Life is coming at me and I don't need to make it happen.

Yes!  My life is amazing and I can feel myself expanding even more!  It is so good to be counting calories, it really helps me focus on appreciating the food that I do get to eat (rather than just scarfing down more than I need).  It also helps me choose foods that are going to give me sustained energy and feelings of fullness.  I'm so glad to have an app that makes this endeavor so easy!  And it's awesome to have a smart phone that I can use this app with!  It's so easy!!

Love,
Adrienne

Starting Over!

I'm starting over with this rave challenge!  I kept missing days because once you miss one day it's way easy to just keep missing them.  Plus, not adding my list of appreciation to my blog every evening was really throwing a wrench in the whole majigger!  So today I decided to start over, with some modifications.

I'm now going to be doing 5 minutes in the morning and 10 minutes at night.  I'm also going to log all of my calories of each day on my Lose It! app.

Today I cheated, so tomorrow will be officially Day 1, but I will write about today's awesomeness anyway, because it was awesome.

I woke up, raved, and made myself a smoothie with Rockin' Wellness and nut butters.  Yum!  I got to sleep in and didn't even have to be awakened by my alarm clock!  I took Ollie out and breathed in the fresh spring air and appreciated the sunshine.  Got ready for work by putting on a sexy outfit (tights, tank top, mini skirt!), walked to work real fast, and arrived to find my friend working there instead of my other friend.  Made a latte first thing after changing my shoes.  Had an easy-going day.  Received a gift of a small crystal from my other friend who didn't work.  Got her to cover my Sunday shift for next weekend when I'll be out of town shooting a film (yeah!).  Ran into an actor friend of mine and had fun talking about fun acting things.  Ate an AMAZING Banh-mi (roasted garlic-cilantro aioli, braised chicken breast, chicken liver pate, pickled carrot and daikon, blanched cabbage; served on a house-made binchotan roll.  WOW!  GOURMET TO THE NINES!).  Listened to Radiohead while cleaning up.  Discovered that my tips yesterday were WAY more than I thought they would be.  Walked to the co-op and bought myself a lemon-ginger Kevita drink, lingered a while in the sunshine and then decided to go early to the Chiropractor.  Discovered that a friend was there whom I hadn't seen in FOREVER.  Reconnected with her while she got adjusted.  Had an AMAZING adjustment myself.  Walked to the bank in the sunshine and deposited my dollahz.  Walked home and was greeted by Sir Ollie.  Took a small snooze while listening to Lola Jones' soothing voice.  Drank some more Rockin' Wellness shake.  Got dressed for exercise and went out for a run with Ollie to the park.  Ran (literally) into a former classmate whom I love, introduced him to Ollie (he's doing a puppy character in class this semester!).  Got home from the park and took a hot shower.  Washed my hair with delicious-smelling coconut shampoo that makes my hair super silky and awesome.  Moisturized my whole body.  Lazily got dressed and prepared to party.  Got picked up by an old acquaintance and re-connected on the way to my friend's house.  Arrived on the scene to find only a few people there, some food, and awesome jazzy trumpet music from the 60s playing on the record player.  Played Cards Against Humanity (Hilarious!) and Munchkin Cthulhu (awesomely nerdy!).  Played Cards Against Humanity again and laughed so hard I cried ("Introducing!  The world's latest super-hero/sidekick duo!  ___________ and __________!"  became "Introducing!  The world's latest super-hero/sidekick duo!  Penis Breath and The Trail of Tears!").  Watched as the birthday boy got progressively drunker and passed out on the couch.  Watched as his brother took videos of him snoring... and then took videos of us fucking with him (including me drawing kitty whiskers and a penis on his cheek) and posting them on facebook.  Getting a ride home and telling stories of my childhood self-entertainment.  Seeing Ollie.  Raving and getting sleepy.  Writing this and wrapping it up for the night.  Much to look forward to this weekend!  Tomorrow I will fully commit to my challenge!

Love,
Adrienne

Day 16

Today was really fucking awesome!  I decided to take a rest day... last night's workout had me buzzing until after 4 in the morning!  So I'm pretty sleepy right now.  I'm gonna rock the last workout of the 30 Day Challenge tomorrow, and it's gonna be awesome!

Things today that were badass and beautiful:  Waking up and seeing sunshine out my window, sluggishly making my way through my preparation for work and not really giving enough fucks to hurry up, making myself an awesome Rockin Wellness shake (same as yesterday's), walking to work and raving on the way, feeling totally appreciative about being in a human body and the craziness of it, getting my vibration up to speed by the time I arrived at work, drinking my shake while I transitioned into work mode, basically getting paid for an hour of doing absolutely nothing, gliding through an amazing workday of ease and flow, seeing a friend whom I hadn't seen in several months, hearing her say that I looked great (yay!  She noticed!), being on point with about 90% of my predictions and still making everyone happy even when I was off by a bit, encountering some contrast at the end and letting myself be with it and move through it, making $62 in tips (FUCK YEAH!  That's a good day right there!), getting a mango kombucha after work, walking home and feeling through my feelings, making it up from shame/guilt to anger within an hour, taking score on my accomplishment of moving that energy (woo!), walking Ollie when I got home, hoofin' it up the hill (woooh!  exercise!) to an extra-curricular acting class with my friend and favorite teacher, doing repetitions for a couple of hours, enjoying being at the studio and brushing up on my art, getting a ride home from my teacher and finding out from him that he's thinking of me for a character in his web-series, wow seeing the full moon out my window all ghostly through my curtains!, eating some rye/hummus/brie snacks and watching Dexter, munching some chocolate with bacon-bits, petting Ollie and then letting him run up to visit my neighbor who is in love with him, enjoying my winding down of the evening.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow!  Lots of good things planned!  I'm gonna work out in the morning, get an adjustment around noon, walk Ollie, get my lip waxed, putz around collegetown, get my nails done, and then go to class and stand in as a TA!  Fuckin' A!  I wonder what other magnificent surprises will drop in to say hello and bless my adventure?!  How can I open to lots of fun things tomorrow?  How can I relax and enjoy all the moments I possibly can?  How can I take pleasure in my Nows?

Love,
Adrienne

Day 15

What a great day I had!  Got shit done!  Worked out like a motherfucker!  And raved the shit out of everything!  BAM!

Things today that were great:  Sleeping in, lounging around, jerking off, taking a hot shower and raving, eating an Organic Food Bar for brekkie, snuggling with my doggie, spring air outside when I took Ollie out for morning potty time, roaming around on the interwebz for a while (learning about Epigenetics!  What a cool science!), reading the awesome posts on the Divine Openings forum, drinking water with lemon, getting dressed in my favorite t-shirt (Wayne Coyne flipping the bird!) and skinny jeans with my badass boots, blasting some Die Antwoord in mah earz as I walked down the road to the Bargain Outlet, finding the perfect blender for only 20 bucks plus a sweet ass rug and some cool dish towels that say "Paris Cafe" on them, walking home blasting more Die Antwoord and carrying my new treasure, feeling warm sunshine and breeze on my skin, getting home and setting up my sweet red blender and my rug and my towels, taking off to the grocery store, stopping by Agway on the way there and finding the hooks I need to hang up my beaded curtains, discovering that they carry the brand of lotion and soaps that I love very much (a wonderful French brand that makes delicious smelling products!  Yes!), heading off to the grocery store to find some yummy foods and things to mix with my Rockin' Wellness shakes (in my new blender of course ;), having the money to get everything I picked out with no problem or hassle, walking home (only a couple blocks!  Yeah!), getting everything put away, tidying up my apartment and moving my dresser into my new room (finally!), snacking on the food I just bought (some little cocktail rye breads with pine-nut hummus and garlic-herb brie!  YUM!), nibbling a bite of dark chocolate with bits of bacon in it (DOUBLE YUM!), watching my Zuzka video for the day and seeing how fucking intense it would be, packing up all my laundry and heading out for the laundromat, listening to more music all the way, getting a free little bit of detergent from someone who'd poured out too much into their measuring cup, listening to music and writing in my journal while I waited for the laundry to wash, watching a little toddler have fun with an old paper calendar, making faces at the toddler and having fun playing with her, getting caught up in some Disney Channel show and discovering that one of the cute stars on the show is just a year younger than I am (ooh la la!), drying my clothes and watching more of this absurd show, methodically folding my laundry and listening to music, walking home with long rays of sunshine casting summery shadows and golden hues on everything, getting home to my puppy dog, putting everything away and making it all neat, enjoying my newly clean environment, making a delicious (oh so delicious) Rockin' Wellness shake (frozen mixed berries, almond milk, almond butter, 2 scoops of RW, and one banana.  SO GOOD), taking Ollie out for a walk, admiring the full moon and feeling super grounded and appreciative of my life, walking home and feeling a wave of nostalgia/love wash over me (you know that feeling when you arrive Home and you just recognize that you'll always be there, and have always been there, for all of eternity?  Yeah that feeling.  Mmmm...), sighing in the moonlight, getting amped for the intense workout ahead of me, rockin' out to more Die Antwoord, kicking ass in my workout (Hand stands!  Kettle Bell swings!  Motherfucking HIGH-JUMP BURPEES! Holy shit it kicked my ass in the best possible way) and encouraging myself through every stage and every rep, rockin' the last 100 kettle bell swings while listening to "The Way I Am" by Eminem (Whew, badass!), stretching and breathing and complementing myself on the kickass job I just did, drinking more RW (This time just shaken up in my RW Blender Bottle with about half a cup of yogurt and some almond milk), bundling up and walking home with some more music in my ears, getting home and reveling in the moonlight once again, enjoying many breaths of fresh air in the cool moonlight, taking a super hot shower and raving a little bit, getting distracted by comments on YouTube and hopping online right away to reply, discovering instead a really good Die Antwoord interview on HBO, all day feeling super excited about Bonnaroo this summer (only 3 months away!), drinking lots of water, washing all of my dishes and wiping down the counter with one of my new bar mops, making plans for acting exercises this week, lying in my bed unable to sleep but really feeling the vibrations in my body, enjoying deep breaths that stretch my spine and back and ribs, getting up and snacking on more bread/hummus/brie treats, sitting down to this loving rave and realizing how much awesomeness was packed into today.

This is fucking awesome.  I love my life!  I'm gonna have so much fucking fun tomorrow!  Repetitions for everybody with my favorite teacher!  Excellent high-paced work day!  Great food!  Rockin' Wellness!  Zwow workout!  Badassness everywhere!!!!

Love,
Adrienne

Day 14

The two week mark!  I'm well on my way to having a new habit fully ingrained in mah brain space!

Things today that were fucking baller:  sleeping for what felt like forever but still having like 2 hours to prep for work, taking a nice hot shower and raving, getting out and finding everything I could find to appreciate about my body while I rubbed every inch with lotion (ooh that sounds naughty), putting on my badass boots and taking Ollie for a little walk to pick up a paycheck, returning and heading out to work while rocking out to Die Antwoord (Can't. Get. Enough!), stopping by the co-op for some snacks (wasabi seaweed crisps, raw chili chocolate macaroons, and a mango kombucha, holy yum!), changing into some of my favorite shoes ever (my black Mary Jane style Aurora Shoes!  So comfy!), pretty easy-going day with excellent co-workers, nibbling on my snacks all day, only 4 hours of work, eating the most delicious salad (fresh spinach topped with curry-rubbed chicken breast, fresh pineapple, basmati rice, red onions, and a yogurt-curry sauce!  WOW!  Add a little avocado and BAM!), one last raw macaroon and few sips of decaf coffee to finish it off perfectly, listening to conversations about The X Files, starting out my clean-up shuffle with some Die Antwoord (Baby's On Fire!  Stuck in my head all day!), finishing clean up and signing out at 4 (fuck yeah, an extra hour means an extra 10 bucks!), going to the chiropractor and having an awesome adjustment and a nice conversation about fitness, buying some more Organic Food Bars and paying for my treatment in full, overhearing some high school chicks in the waiting room say "Let's go home and watch Children of The Corn!" (omg I was dying inside, way too funny/absurd), depositing my paycheck and tips from yesterday and today into my bank account, walking home in the sunshine, taking Ollie out for a nice long walk wearing just a sweater and my badass boots, watching Ollie chase after a flock of ducks with a look of pure joy on his tiny doggie face, 

Enjoying sloshing through the mud in my awesome boots (did I mention my boots are fucking badass in every way possible?), feeling the warming spring breeze blowing through my sweater, getting home and finding my Rockin' Wellness had arrived (yeah!  Love that shit!), lazing about in my room while the setting sun shone through my purple curtains and made my room feel all mystical and shit, chatting on the phone with my mom about vibration and flowing energy, relaxing on my awesome bed, getting up and making myself a delicious meal (fresh spinach, broccoli sprouts, avocado, balsamic dressing, and 2 fried eggs with Frank's Red Hot!  Yummo!), watching Die Antwoord videos and interviews for like 2 hours, reading uplifting threads on the Divine Openings forum, reading part of Module 2 from Level 1 on DivineOpenings.com, raving for 10 minutes and feeling like it was way less than that because I was on such a roll!  Cuddling with my puppy and getting ready for bed.  Checkin out my abs in the mirror (they're starting to peek out!  Fuckin sweet!).

Life is so good!  I'm really glad I've started doing this so consistently, it feels amazing.

Love,

Adrienne 

Day 13

Wow, today was so fucking wonderful!  YES!

I LOVE RAVING!

This morning I was walking to work and realized I hadn't raved yet, so I decided to rave in my head all the way to work.  And it was wonderful because it just kept going as I went about my day!  I gently intended to have a great day at work, and it just was!  One thing in particular that I have to rave about is that one of my co-workers and I got along so swimmingly well!  And only last week I thought for sure that he hated me!  But I did my best to release resistance and just accept that I can't control his or anyone's opinion of me, and that sometimes people might not like me and that's their God-given right!  I must have released a lot of resistance, because we got along so well today and all I could think all day long was "Thank You so much, this is exactly what I wanted!  If You can do this, You can do anything!"

Things today that were great:  Waking up and throwing on a bunch of clothes, bundling up (putting on my new boots over some thick socks!) and wandering out into the blustery snow and being fuckin' warm!  Raving in my brain all the way to work, stopping into the co-op and buying a mango kombucha (wow, I had forgotten how amazing these are!  I want to have one every day!) and a coconut water and a protein bar, eating those things intermittently while slicing meat and cucumbers and listening to my "Spirit Uplift" playlist, coming upstairs and encountering a very very slow and easy-going day, having so much fun with my co-workers and with the people I served, feeling amazing about myself and my life, thinking of friends and loved ones and feeling little bursts of love, snacking on delicious potatoes, making espressos like a bawss, closing early (yeah!), being tipped $40 on a $60 bill (one of my favorite regulars!), making a delicious salad with chorizo and avocados and sweet potatoes and zucchini and other shit (YUMMO!), listening to Fleetwood Mac while we cleaned up, getting to eat some yummy Rye-and-Whisky chocolate chip cookie (yeehaw!), walking to the bank in the sunshine, discovering that I'd forgotten to grab my tips but that we'd made $73 (which is $13 more than I'd expected!  BALLER!), getting a fresh check book ledger, walking home and encountering my puppy dog for about 20 minutes, taking off again to go downtown and catch a bus, downloading Ten$ion by Die Antwoord on the way out the door and down the block, listening to it on the bus ride to class to do our relationship exercise, doing the exercise and learning what to do better next time (which will be next week, yay!), walking back downtown, running into a good friend at a restaurant I was passing by, going inside for some good company, buying another coconut water and some motherfuckin fried chicken!  Eating the shit out of that fried chicken (with spicy wing sauce!  YUM!) and licking my fingers, seeing a girl that I have a crush on behind the counter (turns out she owns the place), making jokes and talking about how I'm gonna live to be 700, walking to the gym and doing a quick power yoga sesh with Zuzka, coming out of the yoga room and seeing my friend and fellow actor doing his workout (he'd been talking about starting a membership at my gym, and I'd encouraged him to do so), chit-chatting with him for a minute, changing back into street clothes and getting bundled up, plugging in some more Die Antwoord and rockin that shit all the way home, letting Ollie out to play in the snow for a bit, seeing the bright-ass moon high in the sky and making the snow sparkle, balancing my checkbook, getting a happy answer to a worried question on the PayPal help line, checking in on the Divine Openings forum and seeing that others had become inspired by my 30 Day Rave Challenge, raving for 10 minutes, feeling sleepy, cuddling with my puppy dog, bundling up in sweats and getting ready to go to bed, brushing my teeth and admiring my pretty face, listening to Abraham talk about eating and what our cells are asking for, relaxing a little bit about my body and my relationship to food and such, looking forward to the goodness that tomorrow is sure to bring.

Love,
Adrienne

Day 12

Today was great!  I raved some good raves!  Worked out, too, and that was great.

Things today that rocked: Sleeping in till about 10, lounging about for a while, finding a rainy day outside, letting Ollie out and breathing in some fresh air, eating a banana with peanut butter and honey, raving while taking a hot shower and shaving my legs, putting lotion all over my skin, going commando in skinny jeans, discovering that the rain had turned to snow/sleet (whoa!), bundling up and walking downtown, making it to the bus stop at the perfect time, riding up the hill and heading to the studio for some in-character repetitions, walking over to the art building and modeling for only half an hour, getting out early and going shopping for some waterproof boots, finding a surprising pair of boots that I never would have imagined buying (Blundstones... kind of ugly, but they're kinda badass, too.  Water-resistant already, and they sprayed waterproof stuff on them at the store.  I rocked them with some colorful striped socks), walking back up the hill to discover that class had been cancelled, heading to the bagel shop to eat a delicious croissanwich with turkey and avocado and sprouts and deliciousness, writing my circumstances and character background and exercising my imagination muscles (yay!), getting on the bus and going back downtown, heading to the gym for some hardcore Zuzka workout adventures, rockin' that shit and realizing I probably should have used a heavier weight (perhaps I'll do this workout again next week), friendly chit-chat and compliments on my boots in the locker room, bundling up and walking home and loving how my toes stayed warm all the way home!  No more miserable wet feet ever again!  Ollie greeting me at the door, taking all of my recycling over to the bin around the corner, eating some cottage cheese with peaches, cleaning all the papers off my kitchen table, finding the W2 forms I'd been looking for (YES!  Now I can file my tax return!), discovering that I made probably $13,000 last year!  Whoa!  More than I ever made in my life all together!  Cooking up some delicious green stuff (kale, spinach, asparagus, broccoli, all sauteed in butter and spritzed with lemon juice.  Yummo!), reading some Divine Openings stuff on the Level 1 Online Course, getting texts from old friends in the City (looks like I'll be making a visit down there in the springtime!  Yeah!), doing my evening rave while eating a banana with peanutbutter, enjoying this re-cap and getting to bed at a good time, looking forward to working tomorrow and then going to class for this relationship exercise.  BOOYAH!

Love,
Adrienne

Day 11

So I skipped a few days of blogging, but I still kept my commitments!  Well, sort of... There were a couple days where I fell asleep early and woke up like 12 hours later and had missed my nighttime rave.  But I made up for it by doing 20 minutes in the morning.  Last night was one of those nights!  So I raved for 20 minutes this morning and 10 minutes just now.  I have so much, it's really wonderful!

Things today that were great:  Waking up early and taking a shower, shaving my legs, raving for 20 minutes, eating banana with peanut butter and honey, drinking water, snuggling into my awesome new pillow (so perfectly firm), taking a long nap while listening to a Diving In audio from Lola, waking up and getting dressed, writing my last check to pay off my school debt (yeehaw!), heading outside in the warm and beautiful sunshine!  Meeting with a fellow actor to come up with our relationship background for our exercise in class tomorrow (YAY!), eating a delicious apricot-almond-cherry tart (wow!) and a chocolate-dipped butter pecan cookie (double wow!) and drinking some delicious decaf coffee, heading over to the taqueria and eating chicken mole enchiladas (delish!), drinking more water, killing time at a vintage boutique trying on fur coats, getting an adjustment at the chiropractor's office, reconnecting with someone via email to whom I owed some money from a while ago, paying off that final debt, working out (motherfucking burpees and lunges!  whoa nelly!), eating an organic food bar and a Kind Bar, drinking more water, coming home and walking Ollie, getting back and putting up my curtains in my bedroom (Yes!  Finally!  Such a great color too!  A rich, deep purple!  Yummmy.), listening to Die Antwoord while I worked, wearing my carpenter's apron with my tools and screws and stuff in it, washing all of my dishes, raving and drinking water, feeling sleepy and ready to go to bed, looking forward to reading Watch Where You Point That Thing! and reading the Level 1 Online course material before going to bed.

Thank you thank you thank you!  It is so great to have the money to do the things I love.  It's so great to be completely free in my finances!  I can do this!  Yes!

Love,
Adrienne

Day 8

So last night I fell asleep at like 7:30 and didn't wake up until 6 am!  So I missed my daily blog rave, but I made up for my missed vocal rave by doing 20 minutes this morning!  Whoa!  That was excellent!

Things yesterday and today that were great:  Bites of coconut cream cake, having a slightly tense interaction transform into a very positive connection with a co-worker, being told I'm awesome by that co-worker via text today, waking up at 6 am on my own and having a nice long and full day, coming home yesterday and finding a check in the mail for $5000!!! Calling my grandma and grandpa to thank them, meeting with a fellow actor to work on a 4th semester relationship exercise (yay!  My fave!), having peppermint and red zinger tea, sunshine and spring-ish weather outside yesterday, walking my dog while I did all my errands, a lady having me go ahead of her in line at the bank (I was walking through the drive-thru with my pup!), getting 2 dog biscuits from strangers on the street, receiving so much kindness and friendliness while out and about, having amazing dreams for 11 hours straight, waking up and raving the shit out of everything (like the fact that ALL of my debts are now able to be paid!  ALL OF THEM!  FUCK YES!), going downtown and running into an acting friend and getting a ride the rest of the way, window shopping, walking Ollie some more, doing a film shoot and having fun conversations with the other extras, seeing a cute guy take his shirt off right in front of me (yum), drinking kombucha, eating chocolate-covered organic protein bars, working out and listening to Die Antwoord ("So What" is the perfect tempo for doing the "alternating crab dance"), walking home and scarfing another protein bar, taking a hot shower, regarding my naked bod in the mirror, sitting with myself for a while, reading Divine Openings stuff, buying $500 worth of Divine Openings products and services (yes!  Better than tithing!), paying off a loan entirely, paying off a medical bill entirely, knowing that I can pay everything else off entirely!  Walking around feeling completely relaxed about money, daydreaming about going to Bonnaroo (yeah!), bouncing on an ergo yoga ball chair (I need to get one of those), partying with good friends, making sex jokes on a giant bed full of people, listening to Die Antwoord and hula hooping inside, getting some free physical therapy from a sexy older dude, checking out the Level 1 Online Retreat that I just bought on the Divine Openings website (oh yeah, so ready for this!  I've been waiting!), preparing myself to rave off into dream land.

Ok that's it!  I'm going to bed!  Working in the morning and then dinner with my dad!

Love,
Adrienne

Day 30 / Day 6

Today was full of contrast.  But I moved energy, and I'm giving myself credit for that.  I am still at the gym, just finished Zshred #8 (Day 22!), and it was intense and fucking awesome.  I rocked that shit!  I came very close to not doing it, but then I just did it because I've come this far and I'm not going to give up on my challenge on day 30!  Fuck that!

Things today that were great:  Waking up early without my alarm, lounging for a little while in my new bedroom and listening to the morning traffic, seeing sunlight out my windows, eating my vitamins and taking a shower, packing up some yogurt with honey and bananas and granola, drinking a big jar full of water, bundling up and walking to work and raving on the way, listening to Die Antwoord while slicing meat (fucking badass!), having a pretty decently busy day with happy customers, encouraging my energy to pick up throughout the day, making myself a Michel salad (delicious), listening to my "melancholy" playlist while cleaning up, making $100 in tips, getting my paycheck, walking home and listening to more Die Antwoord (obsessed!), getting home and taking my doggie for a walk in the sunshine (feels like spring is coming!), returning home and heading up to acting class for a Well Well exercise, getting good critique and then heading home, making it to the bus at the perfect time (both ways), having the money for the bus, walking home and listening to Ellie Goulding's "Burn" (LOVE that song), getting home and raging out for a few minutes to move some energy, taking a LONG nap (from 7 pm to 1:30 am!  whoa!  that's why I almost didn't go to the gym, but then I did), waking up and making some dinner (sauteed kale, spinach and beet greens, with a sliced sauteed beet, and some greek yogurt sauce I made using yogurt, whey, and Frank's Red Hot.  And avocado as an after thought), listening to Lola Jones' audios, reading Things Are Going Great In My Absence, going within and opening up my body and my vibration, cuddling with my doggie, watching my Zuzka video and preparing myself mentally for the challenging workout, checking out my rapidly toning body, getting dressed and ready to go to the gym, listening to more Die Antwoord on the way, rocking this workout like a bawss, eating some yogurt with honey and bananas post-workout, drinking mad water, writing up this report.

Gonna go home now and rave and meditate.  I've got a few hours to rest and ground myself before I go to work again.  I've been working a lot this week, but Saturday I have the day off and I'll be doing a film shoot as an extra, as well as going to a party!  It should be a fun day :)

Love,
Adrienne

Day 29 / Day 5

Today was great for many reasons!  It was my rest day, so I went to the gym and stretched and lied down in shavasana for a long while.  I like doing that, I go pretty deep into meditation when I'm lying on my back.  It was nice.  

Things today that were great:  Waking up late-ish and skipping the morning shower, taking my gummy vitamins, brushing my teeth, doing another slow-motion-waking-up-rave, drinking cool water, getting dressed in yoga pants and a belly shirt (yeah, I get to work in that kind of shit!), bundling up and walking to work, eating a Builder's Bar on the way, listening to "Happy" and then some other songs while walking, getting to work and setting up like a bawss, rockin' a busy-ass morning crowd all by my bad self (that means I got all the tips from the morning, too.  Baller!), first table was a 5-top with a cute guy flirting with me, cruising through a pretty busy day, eating food off of everyone's plates (french toast, bread pudding, pancakes.... I have a sweet tooth that's been rearing it's head lately...), working with my favorite kitchen gal, encountering the contrast with Grace, enjoying interacting with the customers, seeing friends and acquaintances, serving lots of delicious desserts, making myself a massive salad and loving every bite of it, nibbles of delicious raisin-stuffed croissant pin-wheels, listening to Franz Ferdinand while cleaning up (I always forget about them!  They're so much fun!), making $131 in tips, bundling up and cruizin on over to the gym for some meditation, heading home as quickly as possible, greeting my doggie, jerking off, short naps, hot shower, moisturizer and a mini rave, eating chocolate and reading Divine Openings stuff, moving my bed into my new room (this was a tricky endeavor, but I got it!), heading over to the Bargain Outlet to hunt for curtains, finding the perfect dark plum colored ones and some curtain rods that I was worried would be too large but which were the perfect size, finding a dish rack for 6 bucks (score!), walking home and feeling my feelings, discovering that my curtain rods will indeed fit my windows, washing my dishes and putting them in my new dish rack to dry, wiping down the counters and stove top, doing my evening rave and preparing a beautiful cup of red tea, watering my plants, sitting down and listening to an audio from the Divine Openings website (relaxing deeply and letting it all go while I listened, allowing myself to be uplifted and soothed), making myself a delicious nighttime meal of roasted red pepper and tomato soup with an egg poached in it and topped with some cheese along with a little side of roasted garlic-rosemary potatoes (perfect meal!  exactly what I was craving!  Yum!), feeling sleepiness washing over me as I write this.  Looking forward to another day of working tomorrow.  I'm also looking forward to performing our Well Well in class tomorrow evening, and working out with Zuzka again.  I like how simple my life is becoming, yet how enjoyable each aspect of it is as well.  I'm loving the day-to-day actions and endeavors.  I'm also enjoying sinking deeper and deeper into my body and my consciousness.  I intend to let go and go within more and more often as I feel and allow and feel and allow.  I intend allow the power of Grace to fill my life and take charge of everything, bit by bit.  I intend to go easy on myself for being a human.  I intend to encourage myself and others as much as I can.  Everything really is gonna be okay.

Love,

Adrienne

Day 28 / Day 4

Today has been a good day!  I did a slow motion sleepy rave this morning, but at least I started out with my thoughts and words focused in a positive direction, which is what I'm going for!  Managed to get to the gym right after work today, which was also great.  Did some Zuzka power yoga!  Pretty sweet!

Things today that were great:  Sleeping in and skipping the shower (seems like I've written this before...), letting Ollie out and breathing in fresh cold air, letting the cold air in my lungs trigger immediate appreciation, brushing my teeth, raving in slow motion for 10 minutes, bundling up and braving the cold, walking to work and finding appreciation along the way, getting there on time and setting up in a timely manner, working with some of my favorite co-workers, eating leftover salad from yesterday, finding a butter knife that had become magnetized somehow and playing with it and a fork, making jokes with customers, enjoying the slow start to the morning and the ensuing wackiness, eating a Builder's Bar and letting it wake me up, tasting the delicious soup of the day, writing the specials on the board, seeing an old friend I hadn't seen in a while, getting a little lunch rush and kicking into a higher gear, munching on a still-warm bread pudding that had only had two bites out of it (so good!  Should have saved more for the dish washer... oh well :P), wrapping up the day with an AMAZING burger (blend of local grassfed beef and local andouille, topped with pickled carrots and shallots, whole grain mustard, and gruyere, and a remoulade-dressed cabbage slaw... and some herbed aioli.  OH MY GOD THE MEAT WAS ORGASMICALLY GOOD!  I don't think I'll ever make a burger without pork sausage in it like that.  MMMMMMM!  Oh yeah, and it was on a house-made poppy-sesame-fennel roll!  I WORK IN THE BEST RESTAURANT EVER!  FUCKING A!), listening to Vampire Weekend and polishing/re-filling sugar bowls, eating a piece of King Cake (happy Mardi Gras), making $80 in tips when I only expected $60, walking to the gym and doing power yoga in the tiny meditation room, listening to a Diving In video on the Divine Openings website after doing yoga, walking home, greeting my doggie, taking a little nappy-poo for an hour, getting up and going to the bank to deposit my check from modeling along with my tips, booking it downtown to buy some chocolate and Builder's Bars in order to make change for the bus, getting to the bus about 15 seconds too late but witnessing the best circumstantial turn of events that allowed me to get on the bus (I was running towards it, I'm less than a block away and I see it start to pull out, but a taxi had turned in front of it and for a good 10 seconds or so was just sitting in front of it blocking the way!  I waved at the driver as he pulled out into the street but he just looked at me and shrugged.  I was like "seriously?"  Then he reached a stop light and stopped right next to me!  Haha!  So I went up to the door and he waved me in.  Perfect!  I'm so glad because it was the last bus of the night!  SO PERFECT!  I love that I witnessed all of that unfolding just for me! <3), eating chocolate and a Builder's Bar while riding up the hill to the acting studio, working on a scene for class on Thursday, walking home and listening to Abraham while eating more chocolate, feeling my spirit lift while I listened to a recording of a woman who wanted her film acting career to take off, listening to "Happy" and then more music as I walked home, doing some window shopping on the way through Downtown, feeling some emotions move while I walked, getting home and letting Ollie explore the great outdoors, tossing his rope toy around and letting him romp after it, being asked to do a 4th semester exercise on Monday (my favorite semester!  Yes!), drinking water, and re-counting all the wonderful things I encountered today.  I'm so glad I'm doing this appreciation thing.  It's really uplifting and making my baseline higher.

I'm going to go do my evening rave now and head to bed.  Good night!

Love,
Adrienne

Day 27 / Day 3

Today was great in a low-key way.  I woke up to a phone call asking me if I wanted to model for an art class this Wednesday, which confused me because I thought we had already arranged for me to model today and Wednesday.  But apparently I has forgotten to return her call and they scheduled someone else for today!  So I had turned down covering a shift for someone today because I thought I was modeling today!  D'oh!  So I got off to a rough start, but I tipped the nose of my plane up by raving as soon as I could upon fully awakening.  And the rest of the day went swimmingly well!  I got everything done in perfect timing, which made me very happy because that's something I've been intending to get better at!  

My workout was great, I got it done in the middle of the day which was soooooo wonderful.  I'm so glad I'm not just getting around to it now, because I am tired and want to be in bed by 10:30.  Anyway, it rocked, and I brought it.  Short and sweet, only 12 minutes of intensity.  Really good intensity though.

Things today that were great:  waking up early to a phone call relieving me of my modeling duties, getting angry but then deliberately tipping the nose up with my 10 minute morning rave, making my way through my morning, lounging around in my sunny apartment, reading the Divine Openings book and contemplating my life and my connection to Source, talking to God, making myself some tea and drinking that and a lot of water, nibbling on carrots and peanut butter as well as some dark chocolate with cherries (dipped in PB) and half an organic food bar with protein (just wasn't feeling all that hungry this morning), watching my Zuzka video of the day while pooping, getting dressed and walking to the grocery store (arrived perfectly on time!) where I met with a former classmate in the food court area and had a salad with lots of things on it, discussing the details of our "relationship" for an acting exercise we were doing together in class tonight, saying good bye to him and packing up my salad, grabbing a cart and making a beeline to the produce section (so many good things!), getting everything I needed and a little live basil plant to put in my kitchen window (yay!  I love the smell of fresh basil), walking home and experiencing the contrast of arriving into the warmth from the bitter cold outside, thawing my fingers and then taking the garbage out, putting all my groceries away, doing a little pick-me-up rave while I put things away and tidied up, packing myself some snacks and getting ready for the gym, working out like a boss and being perfectly on time with it all, taking my sweet ass time post-workout while I ate the rest of that protein bar and a banana, guzzling mad water, bundling up and heading over to the co-op to wait for my friend to pick me up, watching a crazy guy rifle through the garbage bins and sort out the compost and recycling while talking to himself, wondering what his life experience is like from the inside, getting a ride up the hill with my friend, joining him as his TA in the class in which I was once a student, doing an intention exercise, marveling at one particular student's character work (wow.  Amazing!), enjoying post-class interactions, heading down to the taco bar with my friend for some chips and salsa with another acting buddie, listening to them talk film logistics, getting a ride home rather than walk in the cold, making myself a cup of tea while I did my evening rave, tossing Ollie's toy for him and helping him find it (so smart) when I threw it in a different location than he expected, sitting with my dog on my legs while I write up my report of the day's excellence!

Oh yeah, also!  Finding out that today was slow at work anyway and that they closed up early because the health inspector arrived.  AND getting a text from my friend and co-worker (and former roommate) that she had two shifts that needed coverage, to which I offered my services on both days.  Money!  Fuck yeah!

Perfection!  Thank you! 

Love,

Adrienne 

Day 26 / Day 2

Wow!  What a fucking amazing day I had!  This morning/evening rave thing is already revving up my juices!  I'm feeling so good about my life!  YES!  This is going to be the best challenge EVER!

Just got back from the gym.  Work out was tough, I paused a lot of times, but I don't care.  I finished every rep and I did the best I could, which is all that counts.  I'm really glad I did it, it was a good one.
Things today that were great:  Sleeping in because I realized my hair didn't look too dirty (and therefore I could skip the morning shower... teehee!), letting out my doggie and finding new snow on the ground, raving for 10 minutes while I got ready for work, dressing up all cute and then bundling up in sweats and coat and scarf, walking to work and finding myself continuing my little internal raving, realizing that because there is new snow I might be able to go cross-country skiing with my friend this week-ish, getting to work and snagging a slice of bacon (mmmmmm), peeling off the layers and changing my shoes, seeing one of my favorite co-workers just back from Mexico and super tan, leisurely going about my morning setup (assess, make sure everything is getting done by the assistants, make whipped cream, etc... super easy for me!), going to the co-op and getting a yogurt and a kombucha and a bottle of vegetable juice, eating my yogurt with honey, eating another piece of bacon (yum!  double bacon in the morning is the best sneaky treat!), chit-chatting with my co-workers as we set up like slow pokes, getting started with a table of 10!, having a pretty good and easy-going day with pretty accurate wait-times for the most part, having only one grumpy party that I still managed to coax into satisfaction by the end of their breakfast, enjoying the rest of my workday, making myself a pretty great salad with pecan pesto (YUM) and chevre and many other delicious ingredients (dried currants, pepitos, garlic dressing, tomatoes, cukes, shiitakes), eating lunch with my work family (god I love them all so much!), listening to my music on shuffle as we cleaned (the occasional Green Day song made me smile inside), getting 50 bucks in tips, walking on over to my friend's birthday brunch, seeing a bunch of my favorite actor friends there (yay!), having great conversation about funny things we all love, making each other laugh by telling funny stories and sharing hilarious videos, eating way too much delicious biscuits and gravy (made me feel gross, but I'm glad for the contrast), eating many slices of chocolate-whiskey cake (brilliant!  delicious!  strong!), walking home and letting it all go, calling up my dad and making plans for his birthday celebration, taking a little nappy-poo with my doggie dog, making arrangements to meet with a fellow actor to collaborate on an exercise in his 4th semester class work (my favorite work!), watching my Zuzka workout video and realizing "wow, I'm already on Day 18!  badass!" drinking water, reading Divine Openings stuff (book, articles on the Money First Aid Course... so glad I got that!), getting ready for the gym, reading a script I received in an email this morning and marveling at how awesome it was (I was like, "yes.  I'm in."), walking down to the gym feeling pretty good, changing and getting ready to bring it, working out as intensely as I could, seeing my arms and shoulders get more and more sculpted (especially evident when I'm jumping rope), stretching and feeling sweat covering my back and knees, lying in shavasana for a while and just breathing, cleaning up and going to the changing room, eating an organic food bar with protein and listening to Abraham Hicks (I miss them!  I want to listen to them more often!  So good!), getting bundled up and heading out, continuing to listen to Abe as I walked home, feeling the thrill of someone who took simple action steps and "got it" and was thrilling about having "gotten" it!  getting home to my doggie, letting him out to poop and giggling as he kept moving around and dropping turds everywhere (hehe!), going inside and de-layering, setting my 10 minute timer and raving in the shower (WOW!  SUCH A GREAT RAVE!  OMG IT FELT SO GOOD!), getting out of the shower and continuing to rave and pep-talk myself in the mirror (oh my god, this feels so good to do!  I'm having deja vu at the moment... I love talking out loud to myself in encouraging ways!  It feels so amazing!  This is the best idea I've ever had, giving myself these 30 Day Challenges, and this one in particular is such a great new habit to integrate!  Wow, I'm so looking forward to the next 4 weeks of this!), moisturizing my body as I complimented myself and my commitment, enjoying the feeling of my hands on my own skin and massaging my muscles, getting dressed in my favorite lounging outfit (cozy gigantic sweat-pants from homeboy in california, plus Wayne-Coyne-flips-the-bird shirt), making myself some tea and watching the red color disperse into the hot water (such a gorgeous colour... amazing that I can perceive color!), sitting down to write this with my dog in my lap like a loyal sentinel, looking back on my day and just reveling in how great it was and how amazing this new habit is making me feel!  How high can I get?!  How much can I just ride on this wave and soar higher and higher?!  What will I encounter as I establish this high vibration as my baseline?  This is amazing!  The possibilities are endless!  And I'm so glad I've made the firm decision not to try and create anything or make anything new happen this month... just to appreciate what I've got and enjoy each day as it comes to me and rave morning and night and anywhere in-between.  This simplicity feels so good and I'm so glad to commit to it.

I love me!  I love my life!  This is so great!  I'm having so much fun!

Love,
Adrienne

*also, this song is something I love and I really enjoy when it comes on at the gym:

Day 25 / Day1

II just got back from the gym where I did some deep leg stretching.  Felt real good, especially after all the squats and lunges from the last two days' workouts!  Baller!

I also just finished my nightly 5 minute rave.  I think I'm gonna bump it up to 10 minutes morning and night, because it feels so good and I feel like 5 minutes is when I just start to get the ball really rolling.  So from tomorrow onward I'm going to do 10 minutes each rave!  Sweet!

It really felt good to start my day that way!  It was such a nice way to get my energy flowing, especially because when I wake up I'm usually kinda groggy and sluggish and my mind will likely follow suit unless I rev it up in a positive way.  So I'm gonna really enjoy this month!  No creating anything new, just raving about what I've got!  SO AWESOME!  

Things today that were great:  Waking up relatively early (considering it was Saturday and I didn't have to wake up at all), drinking clean water when I woke up, taking Ollie outside and breathing in the cool air and immediately beginning to look for stuff to appreciate, jumping right into my morning rave, feeling great after that and blogging about it, lounging around in my cozy sweat pants and sweatshirt, going down to the Cafe for brunch with my doggie, walking right into the co-op with Ollie and buying some peanut butter (nobody said anything!), ordering my pancakes/bacon/eggs combo and waiting while Ollie tried to separate peanut butter from dog food bits (kept him busy a while), enjoying my breakfast in peace, sitting back with a nice hot cup of decaf coffee, seeing a good friend of mine from acting class and having a chat with him, cuddling with my pup for a while as I sipped my coffee and waited for change, walking home and feeling sleepiness waft over me, enjoying a little snooze while I waited for my friend to come over, popping over to the other co-op to buy some tea and honey and chocolate, tidying up my home before she came over, making some phone calls to decline other jobs I'd been looking into, enjoying lady time with my new friend, drinking peppermint tea with honey and lemon, bidding her farewell and sitting down to read some Divine Openings, writing down things I can do this week just to feel good, jerking off for 45 minutes (that vibrator is way too intense when the batteries are fresh!), taking a hot shower, moisturizing my skin, eating carrots and peanutbutter/honey, drinking more water, taking a nap face-down for about 45 minutes, getting up and getting dressed for the wine and cheese party, walking to the beverage store down the street and picking out some fun gourmet sodas, walking to the party and getting there first, watching the party build into a fun and boisterous gathering of interesting people and adventuresome eating, munching on a baked cutlass fish

 tasting durian for the first time (I don't know if I like it or not...), eating nearly half a small wheel of goat brie (so goddamn good), enjoying the bizarre conversation and interjections, being super on fire with my commentary and overall peanutgalleryness, listening to (and introducing the party to) Anita O'Day, leaving at the perfect time and heading straight for the gym, stretching and breathing and listening to the Shins' "Wincing The Night Away," heading home and admiring the shape of my legs in my shadow, being given a dramatic up-down look from an older black lady (lol!) on the way home (pretty sure she was drunk or high.  made my night though!), getting home and petting my doggie, washing all of the dishes in my sink, drinking cold and clean water, changing into shorts and brushing my gorgeous hair (it's getting longer and longer!), doing my nightly rave, sitting down to write all of this and enjoying reflecting on my day and finding all the good parts!

I'm really loving these new habits!  I'm so excited to do this month's challenge!  I can't wait to see how I feel by the end of the month!  This exercise challenge has been great and I've made a lot of progress in my body.  I've still got 2 weeks left of Zuzka's 30 Day Fitness Plan, so I'm stoked for that.  Tomorrow should be pretty badass!

Ok, looking forward to my rave in the morning!  10 minutes!  Sweet!

Love,

Adrienne

Day 1

So today begins Day 1 of my new 30 Day Challenge!  I'm just going to describe what it is going to be and then tonight I'll create a full report of both Day 25 and Day 1, since they are overlapping.

My 30 Day Challenge for March is to rave for 5 minutes every morning first thing when I wake up, and every night right before I go to bed.  I will continue to post my list of appreciation every night as part of the challenge as well.  These raves will be timed, and later I may bump it up to 10 minutes in the morning and 10 at night.

Okay!  Well I've done my first rave, which as it turns out, is such a good way to start my day!  I already feel like I've set off on a happy note and that my happy vibration has been bolstered, so whatever I encounter today, I can be more clear on my intention to remain in happiness.  Excellent!  That's the point of all this!

Love,
Adrienne