Today was wonderfully simple. So much energy moved and it felt great. I'm getting better and better at relaxing on a deep, cellular level, and getting more and more out of the way. By the end of the day I had moved from deep depression into euphoric excitement!
Things today that were great: Waking up and doing my wake-up routine (ending on a high note with "Son Of A Preacher Man"!), eating a yummy breakfast of kielbasa and eggs and potatoes (mmmm, greasy fatty goodness), going back to bed and really just feeling my body, deeply feeling depression and fatigue all the way down to my bones, sleeping for hours while my dog watched over me, waking up and lounging in blankness for a while, feeling suddenly spurred to life again and ready to get things done, reading Divine Openings stuff and sinking into pleasure and blissful relaxation, drinking a milkshake made with peanutbutter-swirl ice cream and Rockin' Wellness (whoa, intense chocolatey sweetness....), walking to the grocery store to get Ollie's prescription, finding out that the prescription would only be $4 plus tax (holy shit! If I'd gotten it at the vet's office it would have been literally 10x that much!), getting all the food and toilet items I needed (perfectly within my budget too, no calculator needed!), walking home with everything and enjoying the warmth of springtime, getting home and immediately warming up a hot cross bun, buttering it up and wolfing it down, following it with another one (cold this time, just as good!), reading more Divine Openings stuff, washing the dishes, giving Ollie a bath in the sink, giving him a nice treat to chew on, more relaxation and music-listening, dancing in my room and grinning at myself in the mirror, feeling uplifted and excited for my life, walking Ollie downtown and back, glimpsing my crush, speed-walking home and feeling light and free, immediately going out for a run, sprinting like a motherfucker on the last block, catching my breath and feeling the bursts of euphoria bubbling to the surface, quick stretch and lie-down on my yoga mat, raving for 15 minutes about how wonderful my life is and how awake I've become, browsing things on Youtube that I find interesting (hypnotists making girls orgasm on stage is pretty entertaining... learning about raw foods... watching a stand-up comedy bit from a Scottish physiotherapist talking about preventing incontinence by doing kegels), getting sleepy and ready for beddy-bye with my cuddle bear!
I have such a good life! I've gotten out of the way so much in my life and my body is finally waking up and lightening up and responding to the Divine! It's so wonderful to feel inspired to run and then go running, rather than feeling like "I should go run" and then forcing myself to do it. It's wonderful to feel so energized and opened! I'm so thankful to myself for diving in so deeply into that feeling of depression. How quickly and easily it moved! Thank God! I love Divine Openings! I love diving in! I love tipping the nose up and soaring on the wings of Grace!
Love,
Adrienne
Things today that were great: Waking up and doing my wake-up routine (ending on a high note with "Son Of A Preacher Man"!), eating a yummy breakfast of kielbasa and eggs and potatoes (mmmm, greasy fatty goodness), going back to bed and really just feeling my body, deeply feeling depression and fatigue all the way down to my bones, sleeping for hours while my dog watched over me, waking up and lounging in blankness for a while, feeling suddenly spurred to life again and ready to get things done, reading Divine Openings stuff and sinking into pleasure and blissful relaxation, drinking a milkshake made with peanutbutter-swirl ice cream and Rockin' Wellness (whoa, intense chocolatey sweetness....), walking to the grocery store to get Ollie's prescription, finding out that the prescription would only be $4 plus tax (holy shit! If I'd gotten it at the vet's office it would have been literally 10x that much!), getting all the food and toilet items I needed (perfectly within my budget too, no calculator needed!), walking home with everything and enjoying the warmth of springtime, getting home and immediately warming up a hot cross bun, buttering it up and wolfing it down, following it with another one (cold this time, just as good!), reading more Divine Openings stuff, washing the dishes, giving Ollie a bath in the sink, giving him a nice treat to chew on, more relaxation and music-listening, dancing in my room and grinning at myself in the mirror, feeling uplifted and excited for my life, walking Ollie downtown and back, glimpsing my crush, speed-walking home and feeling light and free, immediately going out for a run, sprinting like a motherfucker on the last block, catching my breath and feeling the bursts of euphoria bubbling to the surface, quick stretch and lie-down on my yoga mat, raving for 15 minutes about how wonderful my life is and how awake I've become, browsing things on Youtube that I find interesting (hypnotists making girls orgasm on stage is pretty entertaining... learning about raw foods... watching a stand-up comedy bit from a Scottish physiotherapist talking about preventing incontinence by doing kegels), getting sleepy and ready for beddy-bye with my cuddle bear!
I have such a good life! I've gotten out of the way so much in my life and my body is finally waking up and lightening up and responding to the Divine! It's so wonderful to feel inspired to run and then go running, rather than feeling like "I should go run" and then forcing myself to do it. It's wonderful to feel so energized and opened! I'm so thankful to myself for diving in so deeply into that feeling of depression. How quickly and easily it moved! Thank God! I love Divine Openings! I love diving in! I love tipping the nose up and soaring on the wings of Grace!
Love,
Adrienne
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