Came very close to not completing my challenge today, but I decided it feels better to just do it than to give up on it and be lazy.
Tonight's rave was very gently whispered to the darkness of my bedroom. I'm feeling the need to just go very deeply into softness. I've been fighting this and trying to push forward into action mode, but my body is not ready yet and I'm not there yet either. It's a strong habit, but it's still just a habit. I can create a new one, which I intend to do. Softening is something I intend to practice more.
This morning's practice was gentle as well. I prostrated for 10 minutes for my post-movement meditation, which is always nice. I like prostrating, because I can always feel my back muscles relax more deeply than if I were sitting or lying on my back.
Things today that were great: Waking up late but committing to my wake-up practice anyway, drinking water, brushing teeth and putting on a little bit of sweet makeup, doing my hair up and looking like a cute French girl, putting on my favorite tights-mini skirt-tank top combo, walking to work in my high-heeled boots, getting there and changing into my wonderful Aurora Shoes, setting out the desserts for display, writing the dessert board in cursive, getting some snacks from the co-op, drinking a little bit of coffee to alleviate the menstrual headache (oh yeah, getting my period this morning and successfully putting in my Diva Cup -- No leaks today! Yeah!), drinking water, someone finding a hair on their Sacher Torte (oops, probably mine!) and taking it back and getting to eat it!!!, good interactions with my boss and co-workers, encountering an old friend and recommending Divine Openings to him after he remarked on how relaxed and beautiful I looked (and how he was wishing for more ease in his life), up-selling our grilled-cheese and tomato soup special to him and getting him to have some lunch, getting to eat a delicious meal with my Cafe family (grilled cheese special, but open-faced, with tomato soup and a little bit of the omelette filling of the day.... smoked trout with other delights. YUM!), listening to Franz Ferdinand while cleaning up, making $12 in tips, getting to take home some delicious and perfectly cooked rosemary-garlic roasted red-skinned potatoes, walking home in the rain, getting home and cuddling with Ollie, taking Ollie to the vet (wearing my badass Blundstone boots this time as we walked through the pouring rain), a pleasant and informative vet visit (Ollie had a tick, tested positive for Lyme disease. Good thing I caught it quickly, because we're able to get him on antibiotics and nip it in the bud! Thank goodness!), getting home and taking a nap, neighbor picking up Ollie for play time, continuing to sleep, waking up and listening to some Divine Openings audios, reading the Level 1 Module 7 text, eating eggs with potatoes and kielbasa (so good, I wolfed it down), sitting with Ollie and browsing the interwebz and researching acting schools, eating chocolate ice cream with peanut butter swirl, feeling sleepy, writing down all the things that are weighing on my mind, listening to Donna's soothing voice in our recorded coaching session, lying down and softening, gently raving to myself out loud, taking score on the energy I moved today in the wake of contrast.
I'm giving myself so much credit today. I really took the bull by the horns and moved some amazing energy. I blasted right up the scale and now I'm choosing to soften and ease into sleep. Tomorrow I intend to be with the Divine as much as possible throughout the day. Just listening to audios and reading DO material and being in the silence. At some point I can do laundry, and I do need to pick up a couple of things from the grocery store (fill out Ollie's prescription, get toilet paper, milk and bananas, etc), but for the rest of the time I intend to go within and be silent and rest. No looking for things, no making things happen, no buying things or searching or grasping. Just going within, going within, going within. Raving, raving, raving. Communing, communing, communing.
Love,
Adrienne
Tonight's rave was very gently whispered to the darkness of my bedroom. I'm feeling the need to just go very deeply into softness. I've been fighting this and trying to push forward into action mode, but my body is not ready yet and I'm not there yet either. It's a strong habit, but it's still just a habit. I can create a new one, which I intend to do. Softening is something I intend to practice more.
This morning's practice was gentle as well. I prostrated for 10 minutes for my post-movement meditation, which is always nice. I like prostrating, because I can always feel my back muscles relax more deeply than if I were sitting or lying on my back.
Things today that were great: Waking up late but committing to my wake-up practice anyway, drinking water, brushing teeth and putting on a little bit of sweet makeup, doing my hair up and looking like a cute French girl, putting on my favorite tights-mini skirt-tank top combo, walking to work in my high-heeled boots, getting there and changing into my wonderful Aurora Shoes, setting out the desserts for display, writing the dessert board in cursive, getting some snacks from the co-op, drinking a little bit of coffee to alleviate the menstrual headache (oh yeah, getting my period this morning and successfully putting in my Diva Cup -- No leaks today! Yeah!), drinking water, someone finding a hair on their Sacher Torte (oops, probably mine!) and taking it back and getting to eat it!!!, good interactions with my boss and co-workers, encountering an old friend and recommending Divine Openings to him after he remarked on how relaxed and beautiful I looked (and how he was wishing for more ease in his life), up-selling our grilled-cheese and tomato soup special to him and getting him to have some lunch, getting to eat a delicious meal with my Cafe family (grilled cheese special, but open-faced, with tomato soup and a little bit of the omelette filling of the day.... smoked trout with other delights. YUM!), listening to Franz Ferdinand while cleaning up, making $12 in tips, getting to take home some delicious and perfectly cooked rosemary-garlic roasted red-skinned potatoes, walking home in the rain, getting home and cuddling with Ollie, taking Ollie to the vet (wearing my badass Blundstone boots this time as we walked through the pouring rain), a pleasant and informative vet visit (Ollie had a tick, tested positive for Lyme disease. Good thing I caught it quickly, because we're able to get him on antibiotics and nip it in the bud! Thank goodness!), getting home and taking a nap, neighbor picking up Ollie for play time, continuing to sleep, waking up and listening to some Divine Openings audios, reading the Level 1 Module 7 text, eating eggs with potatoes and kielbasa (so good, I wolfed it down), sitting with Ollie and browsing the interwebz and researching acting schools, eating chocolate ice cream with peanut butter swirl, feeling sleepy, writing down all the things that are weighing on my mind, listening to Donna's soothing voice in our recorded coaching session, lying down and softening, gently raving to myself out loud, taking score on the energy I moved today in the wake of contrast.
I'm giving myself so much credit today. I really took the bull by the horns and moved some amazing energy. I blasted right up the scale and now I'm choosing to soften and ease into sleep. Tomorrow I intend to be with the Divine as much as possible throughout the day. Just listening to audios and reading DO material and being in the silence. At some point I can do laundry, and I do need to pick up a couple of things from the grocery store (fill out Ollie's prescription, get toilet paper, milk and bananas, etc), but for the rest of the time I intend to go within and be silent and rest. No looking for things, no making things happen, no buying things or searching or grasping. Just going within, going within, going within. Raving, raving, raving. Communing, communing, communing.
Love,
Adrienne
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